On November 11, 2006 I married Jason John Large, my best friend, one true love and soulmate.

On November 4, 2009 our son was born.

On November 14, 2009 my beloved husband died. That night, before he fell asleep he said “Wake me up if you need anything. Promise?” He never woke.

It took 3 months for the autopsy results to come back. When they finally did I learned that the primary cause of death was methadone intoxication.

The disease of Alcoholism and addiction can steal anyone, even someone who has been sober for 5 years and is the happiest he has ever been. He left this world at the top of his game, and he left the rest of us in misery. While I have a million unanswerable questions, these are two things I am certain of: my husband loved me more than anything and he loved our son more than me.

In the midst of heartbreak I have glimpsed hope. I share my story hoping that my journey toward healing will inspire others.  I live Large in honor of my husband and son, and for all of you who are loving me through this.


2 Responses to About

  1. LDacar says:

    Oh Jill, thank you.
    What a beautiful way to express feelings and be able to remember the path of healing.
    JJ will never be forgotten, ever. I feel him everyday. He is in my heart and soul. My body screams out for him daily. It just has become a little easier to hide my sadness.
    Thank God for you and Russell. I would have never been able to survive with out you.

  2. Bess says:

    All I can say is this is a great way to call attention to a pervasive problem that is REAL! If we stop talking about it does the problem go away? No but in time without further discussion the memories do fade. With the blog we should remember the good things JJ brought to everyone but also be reminded and wary about the way he left us. I just started to work on the next step in my dream and talked to JJ about it as I studied for my first few tests. I remember the pain in his loved ones eyes and still see it today. JJ wanted the best for all of us and we have a responsibility to make better choices in our own lives. He watches over me with my Pop as I work each day to be the best I can be. Jill your strength continues to amaze me. Russell you are the sweetest boy and will grow up with more Aunts and friends watching out for you than you will ever appreciate!!! Your father is watching you grow and is your guardian angel always……

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